Okay guys, the suffering is over. I can’t call it differently. This was a hard and tired month for me and I hated every single second of it to be honest. It didn’t even make me more productive. It made me a grumpy and tired person that is easily annoyed and falls asleep every free moment. Great.
I want to be honest with you. Of course I could tell you now that it was all sunshine and rainbows but what benefit would that bring to you? If this getting up early does work for some people I’m really happy for them and a little bit envious. I would have liked it to work for me as well, because I only had the best intentions and wanted to become a more productive person that has a strict waking rhythm so waking up wouldn’t be as hard anymore. And I wanted this badly since getting up in the morning is one of the hardest things for me and I hated myself every time I spend to much time in bed. I’m a lazy bitch to be honest, and I want to change it. I still want to change it. But there has to be another way than getting up at 5 am every single day.
I journaled to keep track on this challenge so I could give you an update. And I was productive as planned on 12 of 31 mornings now and that was a struggle. I did not feel truly awake at even one single morning. A lot of coffee was needed. And a lot of swearing was happening. In three languages. Sorry for that. I hope it went better for you. I really do. I overslept only on 2 days what is kind of impressive in my opinion, don’t you think? At first I thought it would be triple that much at least. You see, it was not easy for me at all. And I couldn’t get half of the things done that I wanted to since nothing was able to wake me up enough to get shit done. It was hell. Sometimes I fell asleep on the bus or train, sometimes on the couch. I napped on 9 days of 31 to feel alive even the slightest bit. This was of course not what I expected and hoped my days to be like. Not that I’m against naps, don’t get me wrong, but the whole plan was getting more productive and not getting more tired so I had to nap.
So all in all I think there may be a solution that could work for me. And that is what I will try in the next month because this 5 am thing drives me crazy and seems unhealthy to me. What I will do is get up the first time I wake up. And I don’t care if that is at 5 am or 7 am or 9 am. I feel that I could be more relaxed like this since my body decides when it has had enough sleep. Probably that will help with my napping problem as well and I can get more done even if I sleep longer than until 5 am. But for sure I will be happier because every morning my alarm went off this month, my mood darkened kind of. Lets see how that will go but I am way more optimistic than with this challenge now that I know what my body can’t handle. And that is 5 am. It’s too much for me. And I’m really happy that this month is finally over.
Have you joined me on this challenge? How did you feel? Tell me in the comments!
With that being said…
Peace out xo